Tell him you love him. That you have never loved anyone else like this the way you have to love him.
Then remember the way you liked him.
And most of all the way you like it even still today.
The way you have to pretend one day otherwise.
But I know you still see this person in your memories.
In your fondest memories.
In your best moments and moments.
Even when He is not around.
I know that at night you miss that heat, that sweetness, that broken little voice and its shapes.
Pretend that you don’t think about their eyes, like all those times that person looked at you like you were the only person in the room, the one who made their whole world, their world, and complemented you so well.
Pretend you don’t remember that singular way he used to say I love you.
Pretend that you don’t get bored of his hand in yours in all your loving moments small and big.
TELL HIM THAT YOU LOVE HIM
But above all pretend not to remember all those times when this person spent his nights alone, bored with you, worrying about you.
As in forgiving yourself, as in trying to forget everything, in putting all your energy, your efforts, for you, to try, to try to keep yourself alive.
Remember, the sadness in his voice, the disappointment in his eyes.
The void when that person left you.
Because it was the only way for you to move forward, to become better, not to repeat your blunders and mistakes of the past, which have happened too often.
Because it’s the only way not to spoil your I love you, not to trample on your promises, your feelings, and others.
I am sincere, genuine, true and I have never been otherwise, loyal to the end, faithful to our grave.
So go tell him that you love him. That you have never loved anyone else like him, but above all you have to tell him, that this time it will be different, that you will act in the right way.
